working on the verge
a good portion of my 20’s has been spent finding a place to cultivate my career ambitions… i’ve tried some good places, some bad places, some fun places, and some not so… i got really lucky this time around and found a place i think was everything i had hoped for in a job… i think that’s what has caused me to really grow a lot this past year in a lot of different aspects of my life.
that all took a big flip yesterday… since the beginning of the year we have heard nothing but good news for our company… the numbers were going up, we were getting noticed, talks of acquisitions in the works. and yesterday we were told that we’d have to cut back and essentially hold out for something… it wasn’t bad news, but it didn’t really do much for morale yesterday… and of course there were the various talks and musings that occurred around the office of the potential future of both ourselves and our company.
i don’t think anyone expected it. i know i didn’t. but truth be told, when we signed up to work for a startup, a .com at that, we all knew that it was a risk we had to take. finally that risk comes full circle, and many of us are faced with looking at ourselves and our futures… thankfully we have been given this notification, i think there will be some people who will take it upon themselves to look elsewhere, and i think there will be people who will ride it out.
for me personally, i don’t really know what to think… i’ve never been one to give up on something, and i really don’t feel the need to give up on this. but that is the optimist in me talking. the realist in me says that i should start looking around and find a place to secure my future…. who knows what to do *shrug*
the one thing i do know is that i’ve wanted to work in an environment like this since i started college: small, always challenging and always changing, with unlimited potential… i am a product of the budding internet age, and part of the folklore of the age were the internet startups that peppered the ‘net, all hoping to be that company that helped define the internet. lucky for me, i found one right here in LA.
now i don’t know what my point was to begin with, but i think what i really wanted to get across was this: working at a place that has always been on the verge, even if i didn’t notice it, has been a really awesome experience. i’ve learned so much, and i think that regardless of what happens, i will be a better person after having experienced it.
and one can’t ask for more.
-m